Iris Inc.

Normal is what we aim for

I’m sick and tired of tons of stuff, like how the Malaysian public transport systems are never efficient and how food keeps getting stuck on the brackets of my braces and sometimes even how my dog won’t stop barking at each person who walks by my house, but these are stuff that I can tolerate and bite my tongue on. (Mind you, I do have a moderate tolerance level, except when it comes to stupid people) There’s just this one thing that I can’t take anymore, that’s how certain people think it’s weird, lame or dumb I am just because I’m not like them. I believe in the notion that we should all stay true to ourselves and never let others determine who we should be and what we should do and I like to convince myself that I don’t give a rat’s about what people think about me but truth is even the best of us give a damn although we say we don’t.

It really annoys me when someone asks me why I choose to do something that they won’t ever in a gazillion years do. I think it’s a dumb question to which I would love to say,”because  I’m not you, moron! I’m me, we’re different and we do different stuff! For the love of pies, GROW A BRAIN!”

I think people who ask me questions like that are people who think they’re cool and that only things they do/like/hate are acceptable in human society where everyone is a cheap version of everyone else. Like say, they like flirting with guys on weekends while I like to attend talks on global issues, so that makes me a loser. I am a  loser because I’m interested in world issues, I am a loser because I actually care about what’s going on, I am a loser for not being ignorant, I am a loser for not living in my own little delusional world where what happens to the world has nothing to do with me, I am a loser because I’m wasting my weekend on a boring activity when I could be burning my cash in the mall. Wow, I’m a really big LOSER! I better dig a hole and hide in there until I become ‘cool’ and ‘air-headed‘ ‘acceptable’.

I know I sometimes judge people and call them weird when they do something that’s un-normal to me (I’m trying to change that, really I am) but still having people asking me why I choose to do things that are uncool to them is so annoying it’s almost unbearable. There’s nothing wrong if we don’t share the same interest or the same views on life, but making fun or giving faces to someone because they are different from you is just plain shallow. I personally find it really offending when people make fun of my family values just because their family isn’t as close knitted as mine. I call my parents on a daily basis because I actually enjoy talking to them and I spend weekends with my family and not hoping from club to club with my friends because I like spending time with them. Just because you don’t report to your parents on your daily activities (which I willingly do everyday) because you want to exert your independence (whatever…) doesn’t make me lame. We have different priorities, that’s all. It’s nature’s law that no two person are ever identical in mind or in spirit. (hmm, sounds deep)

So, the conclusion is, grow up and stop thinking that there’s a standard to measure normal-ness among people because whatever is it that you consider to be normal, it never is.

p.s. it’s not lame to participate in charity events or trying to do your part in this hostile world, I think it’s rather coolio 😉


February 19, 2009 Posted by | Uncategorized | | 3 Comments

Old habits die hard

In the beginning of my semester holiday last year, which is around the end of November, i made a vow to myself to update my blog more often and I even posted on my last post that I’ll be posting more vampire related stuff, but as you can see, I’ve done none of that. I am disappointed in myself but not much since I pretty much expected this to happen. There are somethings which I can easily change about myself, like say stop drinking cold water (I have sensitive bowels) but stuff like keeping a promise to update my blog or maybe waking up in a much healthier time is hard to do.
I think I’m bullshitting since there’s saying that says ‘if there’s a will, there’s a way’. But, I guess old habits die hard, I cannot keep promises to myself, well not all and I have no willpower to change that.

January 8, 2009 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Once bitten, always smitten

I just started reading the Twilight saga, yeah, loser right? The book has been out so long and I just started reading it while half the population of the world has probably finished all the four books but if that’s the case, more than half the girls in my class are a bunch of losers too since we all started to read it together at about the same time. Okay, whatever, the fact is that I was oblivious to the popularity of this saga and just thought of reading it due to my obsession with all things vampire. I really liked Twilight although some times Bella and Edward can be a bit too mushy for me but that’s just my unromantic nature taking the best of me. I like the way Edward strokes Bella’s cheeks, how he gets jealous when Jacob talks to Bella or any other guy in fact, and I like how he stalked her and watched her sleep at night, it’s so sweet *blushes* . OMG! OMG! What am I turning into?!? I blame the unending loads of homework my lecturers are throwing at me that stressed me out so much until my personality switches are now going hair wire.

Anyway, the point is when I was about to finish the book, I noticed that a lot of my female classmates are also reading it and going ga ga over the super sexy, super smart and perfectly extremely super fine Edward Cullen. Jeez, I really have to stop this mindless obsession of mine before I further embarrass myself. Then I started hating the book, weird I know, but I have this unexplainable natural reaction to dislike anything that the majority likes (like High School Musical for example, I just don’t get what’s so great about that dumb movie). It probably makes me feel special, to hate everything that everyone else likes or maybe I’m just wired differently. I started despising the book, it felt so overrated to me and all of a sudden I feel like a person who I’ll usually make fun of, I felt like like a sell out (you know, like Avril but that’s just my opinion). I really wanted to stop reading it before I turn into a mindless zombie who thinks that if everyone else likes it, then it must be great but the temptation to finish the book and find out what happens was too strong to resist so in the end Stephanie Meyer’s writing talents prevailed and I ended up finishing the book.

So there you have it, I lost. I’m officially a sell out. Okay, I’m being dramatic, I refuse to admit to the fact that the book is actually really good and that I have a soft side, urgh I’m being so…so…un-me…I still hate the fact that so many people like this book but I hate myself even more for being so drawn to it. But then again I’m contradicting myself since most of the books I read are mostly bestsellers, okay I don’t know where I’m going with this post. I don’t know how to put how I feelings into words….I need a mind check, this is probably one of the effects of reading Twilight. Edward has messed up my mind big time.

I need to forget about Twilight for now (although I’m listening to the movie’s official soundtrack) and tell you, my wonderful readers (if there are any) that I will be dedicating my next few posts to all things vampire. FYI, this has nothing to do with Twilight okay, I just love vampires in general.

eddie_rawwwrrrWhere can I find my own Edward? *sigh*

November 7, 2008 Posted by | Uncategorized | , , | 6 Comments